hopelessly hopeful
LILITH MARIE EVANS
Lily Evans
head girl

❝she was a beautiful dreamer. the kind of girl who kept her head in the clouds, loved above the
S T A R S and left regret beneath the EARTH she walked on.❞

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mcwinnon:

she let go of lily, the girl surveying her friend’s face. she wiped at a single tear, an empathetic smile pulling forth. “you know,” she said gently, as she repositioned on the bed. marlene scooted up beside her, intertwining her arm in lily’s, fingers meeting as she leaned her head on lily’s shoulder. “people leave us— sometimes unwillingly.” 

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her thumb traced circles against lily’s, “but they leave parts of themselves with you. love doesn’t cease when they’re no longer beside you,” marlene paused, staring at the bed beneath them. “and sometimes you’ll see the best parts of them in you.” a weak smile formed on the brunette’s lips, “your dad put the best parts of himself in you, love. he’s still here with you– even if it doesn’t much feel like it.”

                                                   ❝thank you. it means a lot mar.
                                                  i’m just really glad you’re here.❞ 

lily settled into the embrace, finally
                         feeling a sense of relief after weeks. 

                                             ❝i don’t know what i’d do without you.❞

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(Source: xo-lilithmarie)


mcwinnon:

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             “lily— i’m so sorry.” marlene couldn’t figure out what words
                                             to string together or where to start. her mind reeled as
                            stretched from father to james, the loss of both men
      devastating her. she didn’t know how to comfort her friend,
                no magic words or spell would cure what shadowed over the
                               bright entity right now. “i’m so so sorry,” she breathed again.
          her gut clenching as she looked to lily. marlene did what her
                                   mother would do, pulling the girl tight into her arms as a hand
                    found its way behind lily’s head. “you’re not alone, okay? you’re NOT.”

                             lily bit back tears, leaning into marlene’s
                            embrace willingly. though she felt a sense
                           of relief after finally getting the words off her
                          chest, there was still a thought that resonated
                          in her head that she couldn’t manage to shake.
❝it just feels like everyone i LOVE eventually
      leaves. severus, my dad…. james. how long
                    will it be before i’m completely alone?❞

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(Source: xo-lilithmarie)


mcwinnon:

                                    “if i’m honest, those eyes of yours have looked
        bloody erratic these days. but um— for what it’s
                         worth
, i have two ears and nowhere to be.”

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❝gee thanks that’s a real comfort.❞
                                                       (…)

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❝so. i lied when i said nothing happened over the summer. a lot happened actually. it really all boils down to the fact that my dad died at the beginning of the break and i don’t really think i handled it well. or handled it at all. so that in itself has made me feel rubbish but on top of that i think i have strong feelings for the person i now consider my BEST friend. which obviously isn’t as important as the pain that i feel over my dad being gone but it all just happened at the same time and he you know, helped me work through those things but he’s not here to do that now and i don’t think i can figure it out on my own so i just need to tell someone because i-i-i-i can’t take it anymore, i can’t stand the gaping hole in my chest. ❞

❝i think i’m in love with james. i mean i know i am or else i wouldn’t feel THIS. i’ve known for a while. it’s been harder and harder to actually deny for the past few months. after all it’s me, i figure out i have legitimate feelings for someone and what to i do? go out of my way to squander them instead of rejoice in the fact that someone makes me happy.❞

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@mcwinnon

                         ❝i really want to say everything’s FINE but i’m starting
                           to get sick of that word. I just don’t know what else
                 to do mar. i feel like i’m going absolutely B A T S H I T insane.

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mcwinnon:

                          “ lily— lily– it was magical. he stole his father’s boat and met me at
     dawn. i went on a BOAT. it was almost as magical as flying, i’ll tell you. but
                his boat was the only rocking we had. he was a bloody bore. he wouldn’t
         even TRY kissing me. i’m rather fond of the ones that go after what they want. “

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                            ❝that sounds like the world’s most disappointing fairytale.
                             and by the sound of it, a very short lived one. but i know
                              you mar, you’re not the type to stay stranded on a boat 
                           with a boring bloke that doesn’t even have the balls to make
                               a move so go ahead and tell me about your adventure 
                                                    after the female boner killer. 

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(Source: xo-lilithmarie)


mcwinnon:

                                   “ exciting? pshht– exciting is a strong word. it’s
             also an accurate one. my sweet sunflower, my orange
                     ray of light– let me tell you. there was a boy in ipanema. “

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                                   ❝i knew i could count you know to break
                    out the scolding hot tea. so a boy? age? height? shoe size?
                          shagability from one to ten? and in case things got
                                  heated up, just how good was he?

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(Source: xo-lilithmarie)


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