hopelessly hopeful
LILITH MARIE EVANS
Lily Evans
head girl

❝she was a beautiful dreamer. the kind of girl who kept her head in the clouds, loved above the
S T A R S and left regret beneath the EARTH she walked on.❞

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mary said nothing to this, not really wanting to picture much of what had happened that day. her eyes glazed over as she became lost in her thoughts– unable to recall their faces, their voices. nothing–    ❝ hm? what ?? no– no, I’m fine, love. i’m more worried about you ❞  she shakes her head, pomfrey had set her bones properly, had healed her quickly. soon the limp would be gone and she could go back to life as normal, to quidditch and the comfort of the gryffindor common room. ❝  …. i just need to get out of here  ❞ mary sighed, shaking her head miserably as she glanced around at the other students that filled the beds. ❝  i want it to be over, y’know?  ❞

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❝i am fine. nothing a cold one can’t fix.❞ lily immediately put up her stone cold wall at the mention of her injuries and the other unspeakable things she’d been through. she couldn’t escape the thoughts and memories of that day, she’d be damned if she actually spoke about them.  ❝you and me both. i just.. want to go home. but i don’t think that’s going to be possible just yet. being in here doesn’t help much though, i’d be much more comfortable in my own room but madam pomfrey will hardly let me get my dinner on my own, i don’t see her springing me out of here any time soon. when did she say you were free to go?❞

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mary grimaced at lily’s expression, quietly brushing away tears with a feather light brush of her fingers. her teeth kneading away at her lip.  ❝  it’s been. … i don’t know, two days? but it’s okay. it’s over && everyone’s okay– ❞  she adjusts so she’s not sitting sideways anymore, pulling her nearly healed leg on the bed, heart breaking at lily’s admission.   ❝  …. me too  ❞ mary sucked in a breath through her teeth, her lip trembling as she tried to shake off the headache that erupted along with her tears. ❝  …. i think– i think it’s okay to be scared though. something really terrible just happened to you.  ❞

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❝how could they let this happen? the ministry… it was in broad daylight, they walked around comfortably. they did not fear retaliation. that’s just… that’s incredible. this is insane…❞ the girl shook her head, the fear momentarily dissipating and replaced by rage. how was it possible that her friends had been attacked and no one had stopped it before it was too late? ❝are you going to be okay though? how are you feeling? can i help somehow?❞

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mary leans over to pull her friend into a tight hug, the backs of her eyes burning with fresh tears. a gasping sigh of relief brushing over the other girl’s beautiful red hair as she is assured that lily is alright.  ❝  i was so scared you weren’t going to be okay, lils. you were out so long and I–  ❞  her voice breaking in her ear, mary draws away slowly, her fingers gently brushing through lily’s hair and the other palm coming to rest on her bruised and beaten cheek   ❝  it was—- … oh, lils. you just woke up– i can’t.  ❞ she murmurs, every recollection of the cloaked figures sends bile rising up her throat, stomach twisting unpleasantly with fear.

though her wounds ache and resist her friends touch, lily could care less and pulls the girl into as tight a hug as she can manage. ❝how long is long?❞ a cold chill ran down her spine as the girl pulled back, her green eyes glistening with tears that only brought out the fear that resided within her. ❝no don’t i- i get it.❞ and she did. the darkness was riddled with nightmares and visions of the hooded figures, illusions of her warm blood trickling down her flesh haunted her thoughts for what she’d thought had been hours. apparently it was much longer than that. ❝mary, i’m SCARED.

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mary jumps at the sound of movement in the bed beside her’s. so used to the stillness she turns sharply ❝ oh thank god.  ❞  her voice breaking, hand flying to cover her mouth she bursts into tears, filled with crushing relief at the sight. she’s awake. she was going to be okay– && surely that meant mary would be too. throwing aside her sheets, mary attempts to sit up. wanting to console lily properly, she limps over to sit on the edge of lily’s bed   ❝  no– no shh. it’s okay. no one’s here  ❞ 

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her eyes darted over to mary, a broken sob falling past her parted lips as she watched the girl limp to her side. she shook her head, her jaw trembling as she reached for the girls hand, gripping it tightly once she was close enough. ❝You’re okay, you’re okay, thank god you’re okay.❞ tears fell along her cheeks as she surveyed the girls face assessing the damage. her heart ached as she caught the injuries mary had sustained. ❝what happened? who were they?❞

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–❝ right.  ❞  she laughs, gently nudging her friend’s shoulder . but at the admission of his name her jaw runs slack for the briefest of moments before she is reminding herself to keep it together.   ❝   that.   is.   …. perfectly …    expected. –yup. not even a little bit surprised over here. ….—you & james. I— … I think that’s great, actually. I mean– he really is so funny & sweet. && you are too. … It makes sense.  ❞ the surprise fades quickly as she talks, expression shifting into a thoughtful grin   ❝ but i mean it only really makes sense if you’re happy. you’re happy, right?  

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❝part of me hates that everyone kind of expected it to happen, the other part of me knew it all along. ❞ she shook her head, hiding her face against the palms of her hands as she groaned softly. ❝thanks mary… it’s not like we’re TOGETHER or anything… we just have sex and then say we’re never going to have sex again. only to have sex again the next time we’re both in a room alone. i honestly don’t know how to feel about it right now. it feels really good when its happening and i feel happy when i’m around him, even if we are nothing it’s just nice to be around him. but at the same time, when i’m alone part of me feels really lonely sometimes. i dont know, it’s probably really silly. i’m just really glad i have him in my life either way.❞

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–❝ of  course you will. you brilliantly brave goddess  ❞  she sends her friend an admiring look, her nerves shot dead. ❝ oh lils–…. but you know. if that’s where you feel comfortable? maybe you should just have him meet you there? and I– i feel really silly referring to this person as ‘they’. but I mean– !! if it’s a secret that’s okay. totally get it. the point is you should talk to him. it doesn’t have to even be about anything serious just… talk, yknow? ❞

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❝sweets, you’re way too kind. i’m no goddess.❞ lily laughed softly, hiding the gentle blush that crept onto her cheeks. ❝it’s just… we both lack a bit of willpower. we’re not supposed to keep doing what we did, it only confuses both of us more yet the second i see him, clothes are flying left and right and let’s just say we don’t talk much. just don’t freak out like everyone else did when i admitted this alright? it’s james. JAMES POTTER. the handsome devil has me all out of sorts.❞

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–❝ ahh–!!  okay and I promise not to chicken out.  ❞  she laughs, heart fluttering but feeling determined under lily’s encouragement. ❝ really?? i had no idea !!! that’s great! … no need to panic just yet. i think it’s pretty normal to not get it quite right the first around. && luckily the best people are willing to give you a second chance. you have you talked to them since? you’re not avoiding him, are you?? ❞

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❝i’ll be with you every step of the way. trust me, it’s not hardly as scary as it seems, it’ll be over before you know it.❞ lily groaned, hiding her face in her hands and shaking her head. ❝not a lot of people really know. i dunno i guess i’ll just have to wait and see. i’m not avoiding him per say… i’ve just been spending a lot of time in the astronomy tower late at night when i should me in my quarters….❞

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  look, don’t even worry about it. every one will be in too much shock and awe to wonder about whose terrible-slash-brilliant idea it was?  ❞ her blush only intensifying as she returns the other girl’s warm hug. she pauses thoughtfully for a moment.  ❝   well… do you like anyone? i mean– i know that’s not a requirement. but it’s a pretty good baseline.  ❞

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❝i think everyone will be completely enamoured with how great you look with the accessory. i say we do it, i’m excited about it. i honestly can’t wait.❞ she smiled, pulling away slowly and toying with her fingers, shrugging lightly.  ❝i mean, yeah i like someone. but i don’t know if it’s gonna work out, we had sort of a one night thing but something tells me it’s not going to go past that. i sort of missed my window of opportunity.❞

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 I would love that? a proper adventure. maybe I’ll even… do it with you. Oh gosh– even saying it is getting me flustered ❞ she laughs, pressing her cool palms to the heat of her cheeks.  ❝  and benjy is wonderful. but we really need to look out for your safety here. not everyone is as great a gent as he. strangers in the street, crushes coming out of the woodwork. we’ll need to be prepared for anything. … alright no bats. but i got your back. ❞ 

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YES! you would look so cute with a piercing, i completely back you up on this. which might make me a bad influence.❞ lily giggled, pulling her friend into a tight embrace.  ❝oh of course, benjy is the cutest. but you’re right, i’ve met my fair share of JACK ASSES, i just try to steer clear of them. i really need to get out there though, i miss having a little fun.❞

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  pull it off? lily. obviously. that’s a given ❞ she beams– circling her friend and giving the impression she was studying her features critically.  ❝  i think you should go for it. you got a bat though? it’s entirely possible you’ll have to beat a few people off ❞ 

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❝mary, you’re much to kind. but i trust your judgement and compliments are always great so how about you come with me when i actually get it done? sounds like a decent enough adventure for an afternoon.❞ lily laughed softly, her eyes glimmering with amusement.  ❝oh come on, that’s total bull. have we forgotten i’ve been totally single since i dated benjy? and that was ages ago.❞

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