hopelessly hopeful
LILITH MARIE EVANS
Lily Evans
head girl

❝she was a beautiful dreamer. the kind of girl who kept her head in the clouds, loved above the
S T A R S and left regret beneath the EARTH she walked on.❞

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he grimaces at her fixation on his slip–- shaking his head as he pulls away   ❝ … –everyone’s alright. but you need to lie back, lils. please? worry about yourself for a few seconds–? ❞ he pushes gently on her shoulder. already fluffing the pillow to make it slightly more comfortable but he avoids her eye.

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❝why worry about me, i’m… i’m fine. i’m okay, i’m the last thing they would have worried about i just need to see that everyone is okay, that YOU’RE okay. please edgar, answer my question.❞ her eyes were blazing, her hand reaching for his as she begged for his honesty. she needed to focus on anyone but herself, making sure that everything was at least alright. she could see the pain masked by his grimace and that was most concerning to her. 

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edgar’s expression breaks, heart twisting at her clear confusion and the unfortunate news that someone would have to break to her– ❝ … lily. you need to lie down. you’ve been… you’ve been out of it for a while now. you need to give yourself time to catch up. rest. ❞

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he pauses before leaning forward and capturing her in a gentle hug, frown furrowing into his features as he hides his expression in her hair.    ❝ … i– everyone has been worried about you. we’re all so relieved you’re alright. ❞

❝out of it for a while?❞ a cold chill rolled down her spine as the severity of his words set in. she could remember EVERYTHING vividly, but she thought that had happened mere moments ago. the girl didn’t lean into his hug, an empty void growing in the pit of her stomach. everyone had been worried about h e r? surely there were others hurt… had it been that terrible? ❝what about everyone else?❞

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he’d stepped out of the curtain to speak with Madam Pomfrey for only a moment, frustrated to the point his frown appeared to be permanently etched into his features. surely it couldn’t be normal that she was out so long– were none of these bloody medi-wizards concerned ?? but then he hears the rustling of bed sheets, a panicked yell and he is throwing aside the curtain and stepping to her bedside. hand on her shoulder and trying to meet her eye– ❝ lily. it’s okay. you’re okay. you’re in the hospital wing. here– lay back down.  ❞ 

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❝i’m- what about hogsmeade we were… where is everyone? what happened?❞ lily’s eyes frantically darted across the room, her mind struggling to piece together the events that landed her in the infirmary. she shook her head, letting out a low groan as her wounds began to sting. ❝i don’t get it, we were there just a few minutes ago…❞

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–❝ noted. a nice view && a great time, i really shouldn’t have expected anything less from you  ❞ his smile is thin but genuine, watching her as the smoke passes her lips. he speaks absently, trying to stay in the moment rather than on things that had passed– ❝  you’d be surprised the trouble she can get into… but alright…. here– ❞ he gestures to her cigarette before he can lose the nerve. plucking it from her fingers and plopping it in his mouth in one quick movement  ❝ carpe diem, right?  ❞ but of course the moment he breathes in he is coughing between short bursts of uncomfortable laughter.  ❝ I– I’m not sure what I expected ❞ he manages to get out with an embarrassed laugh at himself.  ❝  but you’ve managed to get me out at night. smoking.  what else is there for a budding hedonist?  ❞

❝i’m slightly offended you expected any less in the first place. you know i’d come through even after death. i’ll even take extra long in the morning as i get dressed, just to give you a little afterlife show.❞ the redhead teased, winking playfully. her jaw fell slack as she watched him take the cigarette, her expression morphing until an impressed smirk settled upon her lips. ❝not bad for your first go. don’t feel too bad, i hardly got through my first one without puking. it really grows on you. not that i’m looking to get you addicted to these, they’re a nasty habit i can’t seem to kick. the downside to living wild.❞ she shrugged, taking the stick back from him.  ❝oh darling, there is so much i could teach you. but we’ll take it one step at a time. i’m just glad you’re here with me.❞

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he laughs trying not to let his features betray too much skepticism.   ❝  ….  merlin. if this somehow ends in my death I am absolutely haunting your ass.  ❞  he shakes his head, nevertheless following closely on her heels.  ❝  of course you’ve done this before. but you know I have to do my obligatory ‘blah blah those’ll kill you blah blah   ❞  he watches her curiously, fighting every instinct he has to take the box. right. this was supposed to be fun. no buzzkilling allowed. he grimaces and using his far longer legs, he walks past her, speaking over his shoulder as he tries to explain.  ❝   …  i get it. i mean. I’m not immune to temptation… but amelia…. it’s a hell of a lot easier to watch out for her if I’m not screwing around. you know what I mean? it’s one hell of a motivator. ❞

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❝if you do haunt me, i’ll make sure every day is interesting. wouldn’t want your afterlife to get dull, after all if you take the time to haunt me i’d be flattered.❞ lily teased, quickly lighting her cigarette and winking at him before taking a slow drag of the deadly smoke. ❝honey, everything kills you eventually. i’m more of a live in the moment kind of girl. it might be a little hedonistic but hey, CARPE DIEM.❞ lily followed him, her brows arched upwards. ❝sweets, sorry to break this to you but she’s a big girl. i know you’re the cute protective brother type but give into temptation every once in a while. it’s your last year here babe, you need it.❞

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he laughs watching her with a raised eyebrow, hesitating a moment to get through the fact that they’re in the middle of a patrol and actually contemplating abandoning that. but her smile lights up the hall and before he even realizes it he’s taken a few steps forward.   ❝  ….  I think it’s only fair you know that I am already regretting this. Not that it sounds like I have much of a choice? ❞  he continues following her however, of his own volition– curiosity peaked. he had always seen lily evans as respected– responsible. and yet the next moment she was shaking out a cigarette and leading him to the lake in the middle of the night. enigma was a good word for it, strange but also alluring.  ❝  right– well. i think I was more prepared for the possibility of ‘never’ rather than ‘right now’ but– yeah. …—let’s go.    to the lake, Evans. And on the way you can explain what exactly you meant by mischief. because I don’t think I’m ready for property damage or theft. … give it time.  ❞ 

❝you’re right, you have little to no choice. i’m doing this for your own good, you might not think so right now but in twenty years you’ll look back at this moment and think wow, good old lilith pushing me out of my comfort zone.❞ she shrugged, leading him back towards the open field that led down to the dark lake. ❝it should give you a little piece of mind to know that i’ve never actually been caught sneaking out for a quick smoke so we should be good to go.❞ lily offered with a sly smile, tapping out a cigarette from the box before setting it between her lips. ❝hey hey hey, let’s not get ahead of ourselves. there is STILL a reason why i am head girl, i have boundaries. there’s just something you can never forget, every saint has to sin at some point. it’s what makes us h u m a n. it’s what spices up our everyday existence. we all need a little flame in our everyday routine. ❞ 

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he meets her eye, features etched in seriousness– he wouldn’t have said it if he didn’t mean it. but of course there was a difference between meaning it, wanting it, wishing it.  for a few moments contemplating the urge to do it … and too late, allowing the moment to pass you up with your damn thoughts.     he sighs– at last breaking a tense moment of silence.  ❝  I can have fun– really. ❞  He laughs, shoving aside the irony when just seconds before he had allowed a lovely opportunity to pass, a hand running through his hair as he shakes his head in embarrassment.   ❝  ha– take your pick, Lils. skipping class. exploring this place, seven years and i still haven’t been everywhere. …  or even seeing the lake at night.  ❞ as if on cue, he feels guilty. as if even entertaining the idea would set a bad example. ❝  good. good. only good news is the best we can hope for, right?  and well–…. I was disappointed too.   ❞


❝well tonight’s your lucky night. i just happen to have a somewhat urgent NEED if you will and it requires an open space. care for a late night stroll down to the lake? i promise i don’t bite, you’re in good hands. that way your first taste of a little mischief will include the best of company.❞ the girl shot him a playful smirk, fishing out a half empty pack of cigarettes and shaking it before taking a step back towards the closest exit that led down towards the lake. ❝come on bones, live a little. if not now, when?❞

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–  ❝  of course you would say that–   ❞   he remarks, giving her a glowing smile of admiration while still managing to keep their steps perfectly in tandem.  ❝  Well you deserve better. So maybe I will take you up on that kiss. If just for the sake of not fucking up the flower situation. ❞  He laughs, although he keeps an eye on her expression to gauge her seriousness.    ❝  Well it’s our last year– I’ve been enjoying myself. There’s practices, then coming up with plays to practice, I got into a few of the NEWT levels and I took up an another extracurricular with Muggle Studies –and of course those Prefect meetings. …. I know what you’re going to say but it’s much funner than it sounds.  But what about you? … How are the Head Dormitories?  ❞

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❝now edgar only offer to kiss me if you truly want to, not only because you want to save yourself from possible disgrace upon gifting me the wrong flower. a girl likes to know a kiss means SOMETHING.❞ lily smirked, teasing him further as they continued to walk down the halls. ❝sweetie, i’ve said it once and i’ll say it again, we really need to work on your definition of fun. it’s our last year, has my influence done nothing over the past few years? isn’t there at least one rule you’d like to break? promise we won’t get caught. i’m doing as splendid as i could be. class is going great, i haven’t had to stay holed up in the library just get but i’m thinking it’ll happen sooner rather than later. as for the dormitories, you know i’m terribly gutted i’m not rooming with you, seeing you in the morning would certainly make every day worth while.❞

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he goes quiet, his smile soft and indulgent he can only shake his head between a weak laugh.  ❝  I’m getting the premier deal? Well you’re not leaving me much of a choice here, Lils–   ❞   his pause is thoughtful before he continues, pace slowing as he glances at her, ❝ … Of course not. Of course I  would never think that getting you lilies was extremely clever. Right.. well luckily my second choice was pen– peonies? I will… try to remember that one. But it’s possible we are stretching my knowledge in regards to flowers already. ❞

❝a pun many a man has made which consequently ruined lilies for me. don’t beat yourself up that much though, i’m sure any flower you get me will be perfectly fine, it’s the thought that counts after all. and the effort, that does seem to count a great deal.❞ lily went on, laughing along with him as he struggled to remember the flowers and such as they strolled along on their rounds.  ❝ so bones, what have you been up to? i feel like we hardly ever see eachother aside from prefect meetings.❞

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–❝  No see– look, alright. There’s this portrait, right? Drives me crazy. She whistles every time I’m down there. ❞ he sighs heavily, shaking his head in resignation but taking a cue from her ease. his hands make their way to his pockets as they walk, nodding at her demands in bemusement. It’s as her list continues that her teasing gives him some pause and a small smile has him bowing his head and eyeing her slowly. ❝  That is– quite a list. You’ve thought of this before, hm? and do you also accept flowers?  ❞

❝why am i not surprised, edgar the hot stud bones gets cat called by portraits as well. shameless, i swear.❞ lily teased him, laughing softly as she fell into pace beside him. ❝i’ve done the odd favor here and there. usually a kiss isn’t on the accepted payments list but for you i’ll make an exception. flowers are a good alternative though, as long as they’re not LILIES. i prefer peonies or roses. tulips too, if it’s the right time of the year.❞

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