hopelessly hopeful
LILITH MARIE EVANS
Lily Evans
head girl

❝she was a beautiful dreamer. the kind of girl who kept her head in the clouds, loved above the
S T A R S and left regret beneath the EARTH she walked on.❞

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“Fine–” gathering her things, “I’ve got to head to the pitch anyway–” she mumbled, sparing the redhead one last look, “I’ll be around if you need me–”

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❝ mhm, see you whenever.❞ lily nodded, swiftly grabbing her bag and walking off without giving the girl another glance. 

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“You’re not a burden and I’m sorry that I made you feel like you were--” there were a million things she wanted to say, but nothing she could say would fix it let alone make her feel better, “Lily – I’m sorry. Okay? I’m so sorry– I’m being a hypocrite, because if you did this with Fenwick – I’d lose it” 

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“It’s your problem and merlin knows that I hate it when people tell me how I feel let alone tell me what to do – I’m just going to listen, I swear. I love you both and I’m just going to sit in a corner and bask in the shambles of my love life. No meddling from this point on–” she promised. 

❝ just forget it, really. i’m not exactly in a talkative mood anymore. ❞  

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he goes quiet, his smile soft and indulgent he can only shake his head between a weak laugh.  ❝  I’m getting the premier deal? Well you’re not leaving me much of a choice here, Lils–   ❞   his pause is thoughtful before he continues, pace slowing as he glances at her, ❝ … Of course not. Of course I  would never think that getting you lilies was extremely clever. Right.. well luckily my second choice was pen– peonies? I will… try to remember that one. But it’s possible we are stretching my knowledge in regards to flowers already. ❞

❝a pun many a man has made which consequently ruined lilies for me. don’t beat yourself up that much though, i’m sure any flower you get me will be perfectly fine, it’s the thought that counts after all. and the effort, that does seem to count a great deal.❞ lily went on, laughing along with him as he struggled to remember the flowers and such as they strolled along on their rounds.  ❝ so bones, what have you been up to? i feel like we hardly ever see eachother aside from prefect meetings.❞

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vancesemmes:

“For fucks sake Lily, I’m not trying to tell you how to feel – he just sounded like a mess–” she muttered – it wasn’t what she saying that was playing through her head, it was his perspective and the last thing she wanted to do was have Evans at her head, “I wouldn’t call you a bitch – saying no, doesn’t make you a bitch and you can say what you want and I’m not trying to shove this down your throat, but you sound like a fucking martyr and you might not cry about it, but you are walking into things waiting to rip a throat out. I’m glad we cleared the air, but you didn’t even know if that rumour was true, and you were still hostile – so don’t tell me that it’s not taking a toll on you–” 

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❝ i’ll try not to BURDEN you with my thoughts since you already know so much about it all, i apologize if trying to do right by someone that means a lot to me makes me sound like a bloody martyr. he might sound like a fucking mess but this isn’t exactly a walk in the fucking park for me either and i’m trying to figure it out as i go and you know what this is completely pointless, forget i ever said anything. cheers, em. ❞

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Oh–” was all she could muster as the pieces finally fell together, “hey–” she called, drawing her attention, “don’t do that –” she stated fiercely, “you’re not something he can get out of his system – don’t belittle yourself or what you did. Lily – Jamie’s chased you for as long as I can remember. He thinks the world of you and whatever reaction you saw is just him trying to figure it out–” she offered, a weary smile at her lips. She couldn’t begin to explain to her what was going on – it wasn’t her place, but she wasn’t going to let her insecurities ruin her. “I don’t know what’s going to happen – maybe you guys are going to be just friends or maybe more – just be patient?” she suggested softly. “I’m going to say something and I’m going to hope that you don’t think I’m judging you because I’m not and the last thing I want you to do is feel bad, but you’re my friend and I want to be honest with you – he’s waited for you for so long, Lils. He’s been patient and he’s done his time and if he means that much to you – do the same. I’m not saying put your life on hold – if you fancy someone else, date them. Do what’s right for you, but don’t let him go just because his first reaction wasn’t the one that you expected– Lily Evans isn’t a quitter–” 

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“Oh merlin, no. I love the offer and you are an extraordinary wingwoman, but I already feel like a coward and the last thing I want you to do is front me as I attempt to get my shit together. I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I think I’ve got to do it alone–” 

❝ i’m not belittling what we did, we had sex. we both wanted it, we were both aware of what was happening and where it was going and i’m positive he would agree that it was GOOD. it’s not about patience either it’s just… STOP trying to tell me how to feel when i was there and you were not. i’m not saying it because i’m mad or i’m just ‘throwing in the towel’.i didn’t  E X P E C T anything with him. GOD why does everyone think they know what’s in my head? i’m not pointing fingers or feeling like shit because oh no i was rejected, it was good and i’m glad it happened, i do not regret it for one second but emmeline the truth of the matter is, i was a straight bitch to him for six years in a row and i was the one that pushed him away so his reaction is not a surprise to me. i’m not wallowing in self pity, i’m being a realist. James Potter deserves far better than whatever shit storm i just dragged him into and that’s why i think it shouldn’t have happened, not because i feel crappy because he didn’t immediately want me back i’m not that S H A L L O W. and if he did do it to get me out of his system and in the end it does make him happier, then i’m one thousand percent grateful that he did because it means in the end he will still be happy and that’s what matters most to me. that doesn’t mean i don’t fancy him anymore, it means whatever the fuck i feel does not matter more than what’s best for him and if that isn’t me then it sucks but i’m a big girl, i’m not going to cry about it. thanks for the unwanted advice though. ❞

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❝ if you need anything, you know where to find me. i’m always happy to help. ❞


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She didn’t know – she wasn’t supposed to know what she knew and she needed to keep to that, she had made a promise. “Why can’t it happen?” she questioned, “we both know you fancy him, so why not?” 

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She couldn’t help but hug her, she wasn’t much of a hugger – merlin, she tended to avoid it, but when it came to the redhead – she never could resist, “you’re amazing, you know that?” she mumbled, her smile widening, “I mean – I don’t know if I’m going to do anything about it, we’re friends. We’re great friends and he’s amazing and I don’t think he sees me like that–” she rambled, wondering if it was more to herself or her, “I’m just glad we’re okay–”

❝ he overheard me talking to mar about how i FELT towards him and everything that was going on and we talked about it afterwards. you should have seen the look on his face when i told him that it was true and that i loved him. ❞ the girl chewed on her lower lip, shaking her head softly.  ❝ safe to say he rejected the idea almost as soon as i put it out there. but then he came back and…. THINGS happened. and f u c k em, he felt… perfect. but it doesn’t change the fact that he clearly said he ‘couldn’t be that person for me’, he wants nothing more than a friendship. part of me thinks what happened was a way to get me completely out of his system. either way it’s never happening again this was all just a really big mistake and its probably for the best if we just stay friends or whatever.❞   lily shrugged it off, a tight smile spread across her lips before she leaned into the hug.  ❝i’m not amazing but thank you for thinking as much. i just want you to be happy em, always. and you never know, maybe i could talk to him? put in a good word? i’m an excellent wingwoman. ❞

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–❝  No see– look, alright. There’s this portrait, right? Drives me crazy. She whistles every time I’m down there. ❞ he sighs heavily, shaking his head in resignation but taking a cue from her ease. his hands make their way to his pockets as they walk, nodding at her demands in bemusement. It’s as her list continues that her teasing gives him some pause and a small smile has him bowing his head and eyeing her slowly. ❝  That is– quite a list. You’ve thought of this before, hm? and do you also accept flowers?  ❞

❝why am i not surprised, edgar the hot stud bones gets cat called by portraits as well. shameless, i swear.❞ lily teased him, laughing softly as she fell into pace beside him. ❝i’ve done the odd favor here and there. usually a kiss isn’t on the accepted payments list but for you i’ll make an exception. flowers are a good alternative though, as long as they’re not LILIES. i prefer peonies or roses. tulips too, if it’s the right time of the year.❞

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