❝she was a beautiful dreamer.
the kind of girl who
kept her head in the clouds,
loved above the S T A R S
and left regret beneath the EARTH
she walked on.❞
❝i’m just B L O W I N G off some steam. i’m tired of walking around like some empty shell. that’s not me. i just want it all to STOP.❞
he paused, his brow furrowed in confusion as he took in her calm words and her matching expression. she seemed very nonchalant, almost uncaring. “ no … that’s not what i’m saying AT ALL. ” james looked at her closely, trying his best to gather any hint as to what she was thinking. “ she and i
— we weren’t serious, but we were still together around the time that THIS started and i didn’t want you to hear about it from someone else. i don’t want this to end … but i also
— well i also wanted to be upfront. i mean, we’re not EXCLUSIVE. ”
she had to look away for a moment to try and pull herself together quickly, not wanting to let her emotions get the best of her as they so often did around him. she wanted to scream that she didn’t WANT to share him, that she wanted them to keep doing what they were doing without having to worry about anyone else touching him like only she was supposed to but a part of her knew that if she did so, there was a big risk of losing him altogether. the girl nodded slowly, tucking a loose piece of her fiery tresses behind her ear as she glanced back at him. ❝thank you for telling me, it sucks hearing those things from the rumor mill. but yeah i completely understand, we’re definitely NOT exclusive. you can see whoever you want to see and i’m free to do the same. i don’t want this to end either. so i guess we should just keep our options open then, maybe take a little step back? gain perspective.❞
placing her quill aside, she relaxed against the chair, “i’ve got this–” she assured with a smile, her gaze lighting up at the sight of the marshmallows, “yes– it’s always a yes–” gathering her belongs and stuffing them in the bag, “kitchens?”
❝kitchens it is. then back to mine for a sleepover? i feel like we haven’t had a proper all nighter in quite some time. i’m sure FENWICK can spare a few hours without you, wouldn’t you agree?❞ lily teased, winking playfully before she offered her arm for the girl to take.
“blame sluggy – dear ol’ sluggy did this to me–” gesturing at the six scrolls of parchment. she was done. thank merlin it was over and yet she didn’t want to go to bed.
❝that wonderful endearing bastard. i’ll give him a piece of my mind at the next slug club meeting. i was going to offer my help but it seems like you’ve got it all covered. so how about i interest you in a hot chocolate instead?❞ the girl waved a pack of marshmallows in front of the girls face, a treat she’d snuck back from home and saved for a special occasion.
“ i know we never really discussed it … what this is. ” he spoke slowly, eyes wavering from lily to nothing in particular as he fought for the right words. was this even necessary? james wasn’t sure— he just knew he wanted to be honest. “ but i wanted you to hear it from me … ” his tone was low, almost a hushed whisper as he finally stopped his attention from traveling. his eyes were now focused on the beautiful girl before him, a sigh falling from his lips as he started. “ i was sort of SEEIN’ SOMEONE before this started and eh … we never properly ended things. ”
lily slowly let her hand fall from his grip as she nodded, not really sure where the conversation was headed. ‘he’s not yours, he’s not yours, he’s not yours’ she chanted repeatedly as she crossed her arms, bracing herself for the worse. it was absolutely illogical for her to be upset over what he had to say, even before they started whatever it was they were doing she had no claim on him. hell she still had no right to be jealous if he looked at another girl. and yet, there she was wrestling with her emotions as she cleared her throat, trying to drain any sort of emotion out of her expression. ❝i understand… i think it’s safe to say we kind of rolled into this without really talking about it much. so um, does that mean you want to stop doing whatever, THIS is? because i get that you might want to be with that other person instead.❞
she let out a relieved sigh at the implication
— her friend was okay. “ no. no it’s alright. ” emma looked around, eyes scanning her surroundings before falling back to lily. “ how long have we been here? ”
❝two, almost three weeks i think? kind of lost my perception of time for a while… everyone’s well… mostly okay though.❞
🌟 …someone my muse trusts. 💔 …someone who broke my muse’s heart. 💕 …someone my muse loves. 😒 …someone my muse hates. 🔥…someone my muse would die for. 💀 …someone my muse would kill for. 👻 …someone my muse considers a best friend. 💘 …someone my muse has a crush on. 🔪 …someone my muse hurt in the past. 👀 …someone my muse likes, but doesn’t trust. 💩 …someone my muse dislikes, but admires. 👿 …someone my muse used to like, but doesn’t anymore. 😉 …someone my muse has had sex with. 💋 …someone my muse used to date. 😜 …someone who makes my muse laugh. 👪 …someone in my muse’s family. 👑 …someone my muse is jealous of. 👊 …someone who hates my muse. 👫 …someone who has a crush on my muse. 👌 …someone my muse has only met once, but will never forget. 🍓…someone my muse has never met, but wants to meet. 👰 …someone my muse would consider marrying.
james had refused a relationship. they would just have fun— hidden within broom closets, sleeping in the same bed, dragging each other along with antsy hands and intertwined fingers. their FUN sure seemed a lot like a RELATIONSHIP. the poor fool had no idea. he was drowning in her. his lips practically melted against hers, the two conforming perfectly as if they were made to be attached. calloused fingers threaded temporary within her red strands before his hands rested themselves upon the sides of her face, his right thumb gently caressing the soft skin of her cheek. “ i gotta tell you something. ”
nerves bubbled up in the pit of her stomach as she looked back at him, her soft smile wavering slightly. there was nothing to be afraid of, lily was fairly certain they were both quite content with their arrangement though in the back of her mind she did know she wanted a little bit MORE. perhaps she’d been pushing her luck by pulling him into an unprecedented kiss but lately it was getting harder and harder to control her urges around him. ❝what is it?❞ she mused, slightly leaning into his touch and taking an almost imperceptible step towards the boy. she did not mind the water but her body gravitated towards his warmth. in all honestly, as of late it seemed like her body always gravatated towards him no matter what the situation.
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