hopelessly hopeful
LILITH MARIE EVANS
Lily Evans
head girl

❝she was a beautiful dreamer. the kind of girl who kept her head in the clouds, loved above the
S T A R S and left regret beneath the EARTH she walked on.❞

jpcttr:

                   her demand that he leave her alone left him only slightly phased, his concern far outweighing his disappointment. he opened the door and entered the classroom, his steps coming to a halt when he spotted her near the desk. all he wanted was to make sure she was alright; to be a good friend and a head boy she could count on — once he could do this, he would give her what she wanted. he would leave her alone, or so he told himself. he didn’t take into account how his heartbeat quickened or how his breathing became uneven. he ignored the longing and tricked himself into believing that he was simply there because he was worried. he was still mad AT her. 

                   he was also mad FOR HER

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              “ lily, ” he repeated. “ i just wanted to make sure everything was okay … i mean, you ran out of there really fast and i thought maybe … i just wanted to make sure YOU were okay. ”

she could almost laugh, her head shaking as she finally allowed herself to open her eyes and LOOK AT HIM. there he stood, his eyes boring into hers as she shook her head, rage bubbling in the pit of her stomach but not overpowering the sadness and impotence that reigned over her emotions. ❝no, i’m not OKAY alright? i’m not. and you want to know why? because you hurt my feelings, because you should have asked me to this bloody dance in the first place and now you’re looking at me, you’re looking at me. STOP looking at me.❞ the words fell past her lips before she could even gather her thoughts or form a coherent argument but it was far beyond her power to control herself any longer, she couldn’t manage that around him. he changed her, he disarmed her, he was her downfall but she was also her strength and without him she felt lost. 

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pctrovs:

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    ‘ then cheers to you both !  perhaps i’ll thank him when i stumble across the lion . ’

❝i’m positive he’d appreciate it. so how are you petrov, enjoying yourself i’d hope?❞

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fnnigcn:

           “ ye haven’t heard? ” he furrowed his brow, looking at lily in confusion because of her placement as head girl and CLOSE FRIEND to marlene mckinnon. she must not have told her. “ well eh … i’m doin’ great. broke my hand. ” he lifted his cast, now all black as to match his shirt. it was much less of an annoyance now given his ability to use his fingers. he had been practicing. “ what? ye give me shit for complimentin’ ya too much an’ then ya throw that my way? i might have to blush an’ give ye a lil’ giggle. ”

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a shameful tight smile fell upon her lips as she shook her head, her head falling slightly. in the midst of her own troubles she’d forgotten to look around and see the pain her fellow students were in, her FRIENDS. ❝i wasn’t quite myself for a while there. i’m so sorry to hear that though, i can’t believe i wasn’t around to help somehow. are you feeling better? is there anything i can do now? any special corridors you need me to clear up?❞ she suggested bashfully, only remembering his previous request. ❝Oy, it’s not my fault i can dish out compliments better than i can take them.❞

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jpcttr:

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             the moment she left, he followed — apologizing to the girl and blaming a unity ball emergency that he’d only just remembered. she was kind and nodded, a small look of disappointment crossing her features as he rushed off in the direction that lily had headed not a few seconds earlier. she looked sick. he wanted to make sure she was okay. 

             she seemed to have an easier time leaving the great hall than he did. every which way james turned there were people passing him or walking ahead of him. people would shout compliments his way about the event and he’d shoot them quick smiles and ‘thank yous’ before rushing off again toward the exit. he was lucky because, right after he walked into the hall, he saw her turn a corner. “ lily! ” he picked up his speed and ran in her direction. “ LILY!

as he shouted her name, her heart fell and she looked for the closest escape, a safe haven from his sweet melodious voice that wreaked of concern. it was sickening how badly her body ached for his comfort, how pained she felt as she resisted it, resisted her instinct to jump into his arms. she couldn’t bare it any longer. ❝just leave me ALONE!❞ the girl shouted back at him before slipping into an empty classroom that happened to be unlocked. thank merlin. once inside she strode to the front of the classroom, putting as much distance between her and the door as she possibly could. MORE DISTANCE BETWEEN HIM AND HER. her eyes fluttered shut, the pain dull yet still present. she could hardly catch her breath and it felt as if there was a constricting pressure against her heart that had only grown worse since the last time she’d spoken to james but seeing him only rubbed salt against a still gashing open wound. she barely even noticed when she was no longer alone. 

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pctrovs:

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    ‘ it looks  GREAT .  &  i hear you’re to thank for the updated sound track ?  ’

❝i can hardly take ALL the credit. james helped some, it was a collective effort.❞

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edgarbcncs:

❝   you and james did a great job. and you look   stunning.   i think after all that work you deserve a night to celebrate, what do you think?  ❞

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❝thank you, we definitely worked very hard. you clean up quite well yourself, sir. i could swear all these ladies are looking at my date with envy and i cannot blame them, i’m a lucky lady. i do think that’s a good idea, let’s have fun tonight. starting with punch? i’m sure by now someone must have added something interesting. i’ll be a cool head girl and look the other way for tonight.❞

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jpcttr:

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      he had a date now: celia — but he kept up his duties as well, wandering around the ball in an attempt to make sure everyone was having fun. he’d been asked to dance once, twice … he lost count, finding himself on the dance floor with a sixth year eagle whose hands were sweaty from nerves. the song was slow and he couldn’t help it when his gaze fell upon lily evans. she was where the majority of this thoughts wandered that evening. he saw her, watched her, and wanted her — a painful trio that james refused to acknowledge as he continued to smile and flirt with countless girls in an attempt to be the ultimate host. 

      none of them were her. none of them left him speechless. none of them left him staring, no subtlety in the way he watched her dance with someone else. it should’ve been him

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                           an invisible force urged her to look up, urging her to remove her cheek from edgars shoulder and meet the eyes of the man whos arms SHOULD have been holding her close. her bright green eyes met his hazel orbs, a piercing pain shooting through her heart as a cold shudder rolled down her spine. she couldn’t look away, his eyes captivated her and it only grew more painful as the seconds dragged on into minutes and tears began to pool along her lower lash line. 

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                                taking a short breath the girl pulled away from edgar’s arms suddenly, an expertly crafted fake smile resting upon her lips as she met the handsome boys concerned expression. ❝i’m just feeling a little lightheaded, i think i need to go get a breath of fresh air. i’m alright promise, i’ll come find you as soon as i’m sorted.❞ she reassured, nodding as she stepped back, ignoring the gaping hole that was spreading further along her chest. the palm of her hand fell to her stomach as she finally turned and quickly walked out of the great hall, her breaths coming out in short pants.   


fnnigcn:

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      “ yeah … think that’s actually the last time we talked. got a habit of disappearin’ — sorry ‘bout that. ” he looked down at his ensemble, the epitome of ‘fuck you’ with a side of ‘oops i left my tux at home’. he might have cared enough to dress up had he and his dad not been dirt poor. he didn’t even ask, sparing his father the embarrassment of having to say no. “ why thank you. it’s some … fancy designer i can’t pronounce the name of. was incredibly expensive. came from guam. ”

❝that’s alright, i can’t blame you entirely, i’ve disappeared some as well. i’ve definitely missed seeing you ‘round though, how have you been?❞ her smile didn’t waver as she gave him another onceover, reaching out to touch his suspenders. she wasn’t being ironic at all, amidst the see of fancy teenagers she was delighted to see him add a twist to the event. she knew she’d be wearing something similar had it not been for her friends assistance. ❝if there was a best dressed award tonight, i’d give it to you. you definitely surpass everyone here.❞

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❝i’m just happy everyone is having a good time, it’s nice to see everyone looking happy for the first time in a while.❞

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fnnigcn:

          “ figured i owed ye a compliment after the last party we hung out at. ” he gave an amused grin before habitually running his hand through his once nice, yet now messy hair. “ well yeah … but it’s not exactly surprisin’, i mean i’ve always known ye had good taste. ”

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WOW that seems like ages ago, doesn’t it? so much has happened since then. but i’m flattered, really. you look really nice too, i’m feeling this tshirt vibe you’ve got going. i wish i could rock something like that instead.❞ a soft smile toyed on her lips as she crossed her arms, almost like she was shielding herself from the compliments. ❝i’m glad i have your approval, you have great taste too.❞

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